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Friday, August 30, 2013

Draft 2- "ES1102: My English Learning Journey..."

Learning is a journey, an endless journey. Well, I agree with this cliche yet true sentence. But in this case, English is my concern. Now that I reflect on my English learning journey, there is nothing that I can feel good about nor be proud of in terms of my knowledge and grasp of the language. I don't like to read English books, magazines or other readings materials. In short I hate to read. Considering that my English journey started in my primary school days, then progressed to secondary level before entering the college, I spent almost 13 years learning, applying, practicing, and speaking the language. But sadly, I had no passion nor care for it. Thus, I'm ashamed of myself, particularly, of my attitude towards the language. In simple term, I had a 'bad' experience in all my English classes.

The problem was not the teacher, classmates, classroom, the content of study or the method used to teach the language but simply the one and only problem was Me! I could not be bothered of what my teacher taught in class, did not capitalised on the knowledge that my teacher was sharing or took advantage to clear my doubts of the language, ignored the importance of each lesson(though sometime the class was very boring) and I never put in effort to care about the lessons/skills being taught. Even though I knew my English was bad and 'rabak', the intention to improve only burns brightly at my heart, but my actions were simply nothing!!! Now to think of it, I was immature that I wasted all my English lessons instead of using them to improve my English. I was ignorant, thinking that my English was 'not as bad as I think it is' but in reality my English really s--k!! My attitude was undesirable and foolish for being a hypocrite towards the language. Now that I'm here, I regretted all the time,effort,money that went into vain. Hopefully, now that I have finally realise the importance of English, I will not repeat my past mistakes...

At times, I feel embarrassed by how bad my knowledge of English is. Simple spelling, grammar and vocabulary English I could get them wrong. A serious 'reality-check' encounter was when one day my colleague said this to me, "Ipin, you are going into University level. You need to use a higher level of English at university...(ok, i forgot what he said word for word so I rephrased his words here)". I know my English was bad and what he said was true. But what have I done after this realisation to improve my English??? This has to stop. So from that day onwards, I started a new initiative and with a renewed belief of improving my English language...

I'm still far from my desired level of English language mastery. Though overcoming this problem at this late stage was not ideal, at least I'm trying to retify the problem and improve. Language needs to be practiced and I need to start the habit of writing.

 I'm very open to criticism. So if you spot any language/English errors that I made in this post or my future posts, please feel free to comment or blast at me!!! I will feel grateful and appreciate much of your effort here.

Smiles,

Ipin. ^.^v

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